Yeah that’s the word that best describes my thoughts today. Between job interviews, job searches, moving day is tomorrow and the current landlord basically chomping on my heels in an apparent hurry to give me the boot, it ain’t a good time nor a good feeling. I usually have a partner helping with all of this. Now it’s a solo act.
I didn’t cry when my attorney sent me the email stating the process is complete. But inward, I wash shaking. I was blindsided, never saw this coming. never thought it would happen. No, not crying but so sad inside. I confess to being afraid of the future now. Nothing seems fully stable, nothing seems certain. One day at a time is all I can handle.